Sometimes when I see you quick breath, heart skips a beat I smile inward a new dawn. Move forward nervous feet. Anticipate yet worry Protecting my own space, Old memories still linger. And show up on my face. Admit inside unsteady Hoping my heart will heal And find tomorrow's promise Words, actions, feelings real. Sense nervous or impulsive then thoughtful kind and sweet, I don't know why I'm doing a random meet & greet. I'm like a silly flashlight Out searching in the dark Or in my car just driving No place for me to park I'm trying to move forward my mind says no, step back, Relax and pause, be cautious Find signs I need but lack. Yes I have my own struggles. Afraid broken will show. And yet I stumble forward My tears and fears in tow. Tired and sometimes empty alone this house, this life So very long ago now Still Mom but once was wife Move on evolve life's journey The "I can do this" test moments of tears and sadness Then smile, trying my best Each day brings strength and wisdom Give others hope and love Fill up their cup, it's needed. Pray to the one above. Some times I yearn to lie down And stay there in my room, No need to hope for different And underlying gloom. But that's not me - get going Mantra, bravely "move on" There's happy moments waiting I'm patient but, how long Winds blow I stand resilient, allowed to twist and bend. My poems share the journey Unsure this stories end. Sandi Lafferty
With a career path including faith ministry, Sandi promotes learning and helping others with a focus of choice through challenge thinking and the healing power of poetry.